
The New iMac
Many people have addictions and some unfortunately have more than one addiction. If I see something that my credit card can afford, I buy it. In fact, it has became somewhat of a problem and I am desperately, trying to stop the urge to splurge. There really aren’t any consequences when it comes to me wasting my money, other than guilt, and no house.
My bills are low but my monthly balance on my credit card ranges anywhere from $1,400.00 to $1,600.00. I have a measly $50.00 in my savings account. Danny and I also share a joint savings account, but the contributor is mostly him, I feel pretty ashamed about that. My contribution is probably a few hundred dollars total whereas he has contributed the majority. Well where is all my money going?

On average Americans spend $15.00 here!

Countless dollars have been spent here.

Our movie collection is so large. Mostly due to me!

Every time I eat here. $8.00 for lunch.

Addiction. It's sick how addicted I am.

I have the world's worst sweet tooth. That's why I weigh 193 lbs.
That’s where my money goes. I’m completely aware that I don’t need all of the stuff I have but I’m addicted to stuff. Where would I be without my stuff? Where would I be without my material items? Lost and for all intent purposes, probably, unable to survive without stuff. I’m an advertiser’s wet dream and sometimes I feel completely powerless or even out of control.
I enjoy being a consumer. I enjoy having the latest movie on DVD. I love going out to eat and tasting the most delicious soups and sandwiches. My mouth waters if I hear the words: candy, cookies, or Pepsi. The way Pepsi tastes is indescribable and I can never get enough. Shopping gives me a high, especially if I’m pushing a huge cart of stuff. I love how it feels when you toss the item in the cart. It’s delicious!

OMFG
I guess the reason I’m posting this for all to read is maybe it will become more apparent, how frivolous I am, with money, even my own health. Really eating sweets in moderation is fine, but I’m always so excessive, and dare I say, lack of self control. I’d like to try really hard at doing better with these things. Spending money! And eating better.
If I have a craving to spend money maybe instead I could make a GIFT WISH LIST and then if I’m really good I could reward myself after it’s under control. Or wait until Christmas like some people.
Eating better really is a whole other issue in it’s entirety. Eating better really isn’t what I specifically want to do. What I want to do is lose weight. And there’s only one way to do that. WORK OUT. I need to both exercise and eat better! Especially if I ever want to look like this:

Now of course I totally am human and make stupid mistakes.
Now on to the completely opposite of my rant. I’d like to address the sexy, iMac picture, at the top of this blog. I will need a new computer, within a few years, and I want to be financially able to just pay cash for it. This is what I want to buy.

Need!
Here are the specs for you more technologically advanced peeps:

That’s what the computer, keyboard, mouse and added additions cost. Now some may suggest I buy a tower, then whenever I want I can build onto it, however I don’t want to buy something that will cost about as much as a car. My eMac is approaching it’s sixth birthday in December. At 80 GB and a 1.5 GHz processor, and 1 GB of ram, I’ve outgrown it. My music collection alone is approaching 20 GB. The amount of shit I have on it and the projects I do are becoming more difficult to accomplish. I already have a 1 TB(bigger than gigabyte) external hard drive which has 600 GB remaining, my movie projects are all on there. Anyways it’s time to expand within 2 years! I’d also be looking at purchasing these extras for the computer:

There would be no Shanikwa green screen without this!

I use most of these programs already!

Hell yeah! I've used this since 4th Grade.
Okay you may not know what all of these things are so I’ll give you brief descriptions to clue you in.
Final Cut is the program one uses when they are editing film. Now of course this is the deluxe with all the extra bells and whistles, but I definitely use this all the time when you watch Shanikwa!
Adobe Creative Suite 4:
Has Photoshop and Dreamweaver which I use all the time!
QuarkXPress: While you were all learning how to type up a document on Microsoft Word. I was learning how to use a layout program where I could make my own magazine covers, as well as, do my English homework. Most of my files are in this format! Need.
So in total I need a beautiful $8,000.00 to make my dream come true. We’ll see, which means yes, if you are my father.
In other news tonight I finished reading another Augusten Burroughs book, Possible Side Effects. Now I’m onto his first and only novel, Sellevision. And we just bought the paper back of A Wolf At The Table. Then I’ll have read all of his books. We also bought the autobiography of Carrie Fisher.

This was a must buy for me!
Oh by the way people please join Twitter. I don’t know why, but you should!